Weird Dream

I had one of the most bizzare dreams ever last night.

I'm in a small village somewhere in Africa. There is a ceremony going on with chanting, singing, drumming and dancing. It's very barren. There is a small hut in the center that the dancers are going into and out of. A ceremonial fire pit is to the left of the hut and is stacked with wood, ready to be lit.

It suddenly gets very quiet. A man emerges from the hut. He has a big erection and his dick is on fire! He moves slowly and deliberately to the fire pit. He sticks his big fiery penis into the stack of wood where it catches fire. He pulls out and has lost his erection and he is no longer on fire.

The crowd cheers and he goes back into the hut.

Any dream interpretation attempts?

News that fit to print

And now some happy news!

I drove two hours on Sunday to work out with my Martial Arts Instructor. It's sooooo great getting to train with him. His wife, who was a student at this school when I first started, was there as well. I love mixing it up with both of them.

I got a great, fun workout, asked some specific questions to help me with some moves, got great coaching and was moving better than I had in quite a while. It's nice working with people at or above your level. Master G was pulling out some of his fancy moves. He's all about having good basics, but he did an jumping spinning roundhouse kick above my head during a freestyle round that was beauty in motion.

Anyway, Master G. has a way of letting you know when he likes what he sees. I kept getting the signs that he was pretty impressed with me. At the end of the training session he causually says "By the way, you're fifth degree now."

I can't say I was completely surprised, but this was unexpected. I jumped from being a third degree Black Belt to a fifth degree. Once you are awarded eighth degree you are considered a Master. I guess I'm now more than half-way there.

I felt quite honored and made a commitment to make that trip once a month. His wife is also fifth degree and I love working with her. He says he wants to take the two of us in some new directions. I think I'll take em along with me next time. She's a big fan of his.

This has definitely put an extra spark back in my training. I'm so glad that I got started taking classes at his school. It's literally changed my life!

*FGO's

I was riding a wave of acceptance. I went through a phase of letting quite a few people in on the three way relationship I'm in. So many kind supportive words! The wave finally broke.

My family is getting together this Sunday to visit a couple of out of town relatives. It's been over six months since I let my parents in on my relationship with em and eduardo. I asked my Mom if I could invite em, eduardo and the kids. She said "That would be nice." So I'm feeling really good about the acceptance; lucky to have parents that love and support me etc... etc. My significant others made time for this on their calendar. I knew it would be a bit nerve-wracking bringing them for the first time but it seemed like a bridge that needed crossing.

Em wrote about our really great similar experience with eduardo's Dad and step- mom. Then her Mom's unsupportive reponse the same day. At least my family could tip the balance in our favor.

So 4 or 5 days after extending the invitation, my sister, the family care-giver, calls and says they've all been talking and decided that they are not comfortable having my people come to this gathering. I was very angry. I still am. Heated emails followed. I've gotten the message now that they were all hoping that this thing was temporary: that I'd come to my senses: that it would all blow over. The words "abnormal" and "wrong" and something similar to "immoral" were used. I guess it was time the umbilical cord was cut. The pride and joy of the family is now the bad seed. My younger sister is probably jumping for joy about this.

So I'm not going. Major family rift. Whatever!

I got a call from my Al-Anon sponsor today. Seems she can't continue to sponsor me because she doen't agree with this relationship I'm in either. As eduardo says, so much for Live and Let Live.

Fuck Her!

*Fucking Growth Opportunities