hacker smoker guy

I've lived in this apartment for over a year and a half. It's been hard getting used to the noise around here. We're right above a church parking lot and close to a busy street. The sound seems to reverberate and get funneled into our open windows. We've all gotten fairly used to it.

About six months ago we started getting awakened most mornings between 5 and 5:30 a.m. to this horrible noise. Some man who lives in the board and care home next door comes out and starts hacking and coughing so badly that it wakes us all up from a sound sleep. I usually close the window then and it's a bit muffled but still really annoying and once I go through the process of closing the window I'm awake enough that it's hard for me to get back to sleep. Don't get me wrong - I feel really sorry for the guy. He seriously sounds like his lungs are going to be ejected from his mouth!

I've called the facility and they moved the table he would sit at about 15 feet away. He still stands near the fence, right under our place. I tried calling several times but it's seems to be getting worse. I finally called the police and they said they couldn't do anything because it's not intentional such as playing music or talking loudly.

I went to the place personally today and talked to the owner who just happened to be there. She said that she wants good relations with the neighbors and they have addressed it with this man but that this is a place for mentally disabled people and they have an open door policy and that smoking is their happiness and that they don't allow them to smoke inside so they go out the first thing when they wake up and when they've mentioned it to him he'll say yes to moving farther away but then go to the same spot anyway. Even when he's at the table it still wakes us up.

I told her to try again and just ask him to move farther away (they have this huge long driveway)

I've been thinking about moving. I miss the beach community that I lived at before here. I looked at this great place less then a block from the ocean. You could see the beach from the kitchen. I had an appointment to show it to the kids last Sunday but they both said that they thought that they'd rather wait till the end of their college semester. After last night, and hearing what the police and owner had to say on the matter, they might have changed their minds. I'm hoping to take them this Sunday to look at it if it's not already been rented.

In other news, I've completed the last assignment for the sheriff's deputy job. I had medical tests yesterday. I passed all the tests that they had immediate results for- hearing, vision, EKG etc. The drug test should be a gimme since I don't go there at all. I'm waiting for the final, official results but it seems to be looking pretty good right now.

Psych Review

I just got back from my oral pychological interview as part of the process of getting hired as a sheriff's deputy. I started this road last November and I'm down to the last hurdle which is a medical exam next week.

I was told by the psychologist that he thinks I would make a great deputy. He's been evaluating for 28 years so he says he speaks from experience. That was a pretty big shot in the arm because I've been wondering if I'm possibly too sensitive for this job. He said on the written psych score I scored highest in the "socially bold" category and that on another portion, it seems I have a strong ego that is well balanced. (He said it's not in that egotistical way but in a confidant way.)

He said that I'm really smart and suggested that I use the time that I work custody (jail) and get my masters and said he thinks I should also go for a PhD.

Anyway, I'm feeling pretty good about myself right now. (Go figure!) Maybe this is the right career track for me or at least an experience that fits my adventurous personality. I'm thinking I should give it a shot as long as I pass the medical tests. Wow, this could be MAJOR!

Pirates!

Arrrr Matey's! Today be national "Talk Like A Pirate Day." Suddenly I be feelin' like some grog. Aye!

I be shoving off from this port to the mountains for four days of hikin', socializin' and general revelry!

Letting Go

Hey all you people out in the blogosphere. I seem to have taken to the facebook style of communication - short and to the point. If anyone wants to join me there let me know and we can "friend" each other. My posts are most fascinating!

As for me. It seems I'm getting a new chance to practice the art of letting go. It's a place that feels very sad, frustrating and scary with the smallest bit of relief at the same time. Sometimes you can feel really successful at a relationship and then Wham! things turn on a dime and you get to come to terms with the fact that there's a time and place for everything and, given all the circumstances, now is not the time nor the place to be working on building a future with the woman I love. Maybe later, but not now.

So, when that still, small voice directs me look at this from a certain prospective, the letting go feels like a huge opportunity. A chance to save the huge amount of love there is between us and tuck it safely away until the time is right. Still hurts in the moment though - hurts bad.